All blocked up and no, its not what you’re thinking.

It had to happen sometime. I find myself writing less fun stuff and more for the cheques. I rush to churn out the required word limits, and get all the quotes in and structure stories appropriately. I chalk my day down to how many features I have been able to churn out per day, and ergo, how much income have I generated for myself in the course of that particular working day.
Only to find myself now, not able to write for fun, as I used to be able to do. The words don’t flow. The thoughts are there, but I feel disinclined to put them down. Laziness? You would think. Nope. I’m putting it down to a serious writer’s block. For a writer this can be crippling. And hey look, I’m not even trying to joke about this, because my heart is shattering into a billion pieces even thinking about it. Because, if I don’t write, then what am I? I have built up my entire sense of identity through my writing work, and not the writing for an income work but the writing for fun stuff that I do, which has you good folks come here to read me. And today, I literally have nothing to say. And yes, it has taken me 200 plus words to say that, so I guess, I’m not really losing my touch.
I’d also put it down to a reading overload. I’ve been doing some really heavy duty reading recently. Too much serious stuff. It takes its toll. I get serious. I start hearing violins in the background to my every thought. I start moping in classic poses, draping myself over pieces of furniture in carefully constructed angst. I need to run to gods like Dave Barry and Douglas Adams and PG Wodehouse and Jerome K Jerome. I need to impose a moratorium on myself for the bread and butter writing. I also need to take one of them chill pills that everyone keeps talking about.
Ergo, I have cracked the whip on self in most un-chill pill manner and told self that I need to post. Today. No matter what. Even if I post total tripe (due apologies). I need to know that off days are okay, but discipline in posting needs to continue. And I need to be more forgiving of myself. It is okay if I’m having an off phase, isn’t it? I can allow myself some down days. I need to do more inspirational things to bring back the joy in writing again. Let me just wander off in pensive thought to think up what it is I could do to make myself want to write again.
Meanwhile I have two incomplete manuscripts staring me in my face, and no inclination to touch them. Maybe I really need that cottage in the woods (with uninterrupted power supply and a computer and broadband connection and takeaway on call, or efficient cook housed on the premises, I am nothing if not practical) to run away to for a few months and gets these written out. Ah well, a girl can dream can’t she?


About Kiran Manral

Kiran Manral published her first book, The Reluctant Detective in 2011. Since then, she has published eight books across genres till date. Her books include romance and chicklit with Once Upon A Crush (2014), All Aboard (2015), Saving Maya (2017); horror with The Face at the Window (2016) and nonfiction with Karmic Kids (2015), A Boy’s Guide to Growing Up (2016) and True Love Stories (2017). Her short stories have been published on Juggernaut, in magazines like Verve and Cosmopolitan, and have been part of anthologies like Chicken Soup for the Soul, Have a Safe Journey (2017) and Boo (2017). Her articles and columns have appeared in the Times of India, Tehelka, DNA, Yowoto, Shethepeople, New Woman, Femina, Verve, Elle, Cosmopolitan, Conde Nast Traveller, DB Post, The Telegraph, the Asian Age, iDiva, TheDailyO and more. She was shortlisted for the Femina Women Awards 2017 for Literary Contribution. She is a TEDx speaker and a mentor with Vital Voices Global Mentoring Walk 2017.
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9 Responses to All blocked up and no, its not what you’re thinking.

  1. Serendipity says:

    //wander off in pensive thought
    Made me think of The Daffodils. Small throwback to school days 😛

    //And yes, it has taken me 200 plus words to say that, so I guess, I’m not really losing my touch.
    It doesn’t look like you have a writer’s block at all 😀


  2. sukanyabora says:

    “draping myself over pieces of furniture in carefully angst” he he he!
    and you call this writer’s block??? 🙂
    doesnt matter how much or what you churn out, i always enjoy reading your work.
    but i think i can empathize with you for I am struggling too at this point and i am not even a writer!


  3. Sujatha Ramesh says:

    Is your family ok Kiran?
    take care…


  4. Anjali says:

    Wow…if this is the product of a writer’s block…your actual work should be worthy of a pulitzer…really !!
    I guess it’s just something you think is happening, but may not be in reality, coz we don’t seem to see it in your work…
    And, yea a little getaway could do wonders….if you fit one in….:)


  5. Kanchan says:

    You just need a break…maybe a trip to Kerala, lazing in the boats – ready made food, but eh no internet connection.

    *runs off searching for some old Dave Barry columns in Miami Herald*


  6. Aneesha says:

    I need that book from you this year Kiran. I just know it’ll be brilliant. I read such crap books from half baked writers and wonder how they get published and there’s you, who is just waiting to explode!! xoxo


  7. you need a break………..ok


  8. Manasi says:

    Wow if you write like this when you have writer’s block you really have nothing to worry about. Loved this post!


  9. Poet Mamma says:

    🙂 This is nothing to worry about. While you wait for the big inspiration to come to you for the project of your dream, here is an idea for a little tidbit that can keep us readers entertained.

    This is am issue which bothers most like me. I got many many comments on this on my social network circuit. I would be interesting to hear your take.

    A tag perhaps for a post on this? No pressure of course.


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