It had to happen sometime. I find myself writing less fun stuff and more for the cheques. I rush to churn out the required word limits, and get all the quotes in and structure stories appropriately. I chalk my day down to how many features I have been able to churn out per day, and ergo, how much income have I generated for myself in the course of that particular working day.
Only to find myself now, not able to write for fun, as I used to be able to do. The words don’t flow. The thoughts are there, but I feel disinclined to put them down. Laziness? You would think. Nope. I’m putting it down to a serious writer’s block. For a writer this can be crippling. And hey look, I’m not even trying to joke about this, because my heart is shattering into a billion pieces even thinking about it. Because, if I don’t write, then what am I? I have built up my entire sense of identity through my writing work, and not the writing for an income work but the writing for fun stuff that I do, which has you good folks come here to read me. And today, I literally have nothing to say. And yes, it has taken me 200 plus words to say that, so I guess, I’m not really losing my touch.
I’d also put it down to a reading overload. I’ve been doing some really heavy duty reading recently. Too much serious stuff. It takes its toll. I get serious. I start hearing violins in the background to my every thought. I start moping in classic poses, draping myself over pieces of furniture in carefully constructed angst. I need to run to gods like Dave Barry and Douglas Adams and PG Wodehouse and Jerome K Jerome. I need to impose a moratorium on myself for the bread and butter writing. I also need to take one of them chill pills that everyone keeps talking about.
Ergo, I have cracked the whip on self in most un-chill pill manner and told self that I need to post. Today. No matter what. Even if I post total tripe (due apologies). I need to know that off days are okay, but discipline in posting needs to continue. And I need to be more forgiving of myself. It is okay if I’m having an off phase, isn’t it? I can allow myself some down days. I need to do more inspirational things to bring back the joy in writing again. Let me just wander off in pensive thought to think up what it is I could do to make myself want to write again.
Meanwhile I have two incomplete manuscripts staring me in my face, and no inclination to touch them. Maybe I really need that cottage in the woods (with uninterrupted power supply and a computer and broadband connection and takeaway on call, or efficient cook housed on the premises, I am nothing if not practical) to run away to for a few months and gets these written out. Ah well, a girl can dream can’t she?
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//wander off in pensive thought
Made me think of The Daffodils. Small throwback to school days 😛
//And yes, it has taken me 200 plus words to say that, so I guess, I’m not really losing my touch.
It doesn’t look like you have a writer’s block at all 😀
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“draping myself over pieces of furniture in carefully angst” he he he!
and you call this writer’s block??? 🙂
doesnt matter how much or what you churn out, i always enjoy reading your work.
but i think i can empathize with you for I am struggling too at this point and i am not even a writer!
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Is your family ok Kiran?
take care…
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Wow…if this is the product of a writer’s block…your actual work should be worthy of a pulitzer…really !!
I guess it’s just something you think is happening, but may not be in reality, coz we don’t seem to see it in your work…
And, yea a little getaway could do wonders….if you fit one in….:)
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You just need a break…maybe a trip to Kerala, lazing in the boats – ready made food, but eh no internet connection.
*runs off searching for some old Dave Barry columns in Miami Herald*
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I need that book from you this year Kiran. I just know it’ll be brilliant. I read such crap books from half baked writers and wonder how they get published and there’s you, who is just waiting to explode!! xoxo
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you need a break………..ok
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Wow if you write like this when you have writer’s block you really have nothing to worry about. Loved this post!
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🙂 This is nothing to worry about. While you wait for the big inspiration to come to you for the project of your dream, here is an idea for a little tidbit that can keep us readers entertained.
http://poetmamma.blogspot.com/2011/07/saga-of-overrated-domestic-help.html
This is am issue which bothers most like me. I got many many comments on this on my social network circuit. I would be interesting to hear your take.
A tag perhaps for a post on this? No pressure of course.
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